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The Big List of Gifts
My New Sketch Blog

WHAT'S NEW?

Well, it's been a whole couple of weeks since I've updated. Alas, I'm not expecting that to change any time soon.

Recently I began attending therapy for a condition I knew I had that only appeared to surface recently - depression. Now, don't let that term fool you. Depression isn't a condition of moping. Rather, depression is a "chemical imbalance" of the brain that results in a lack of seratonin, a chemical responsible for feelings of pleasure. What's more, my emotions have been out of the roof. Before this week I started ecstatic and dropped to miserable with no apparent cause, with periods of apathy - an incapability of feeling anything at all - in between.

This week I've undergone days and days worth of nothing but apathy.

It's a difficult feeling to describe; unlike happiness and sadness, not everyone experiences total apathy, but I'll try my best. Under normal circumstances, if you receive a compliment, you feel a fleeting happiness. For me, even when people complimented me on my outfit, my hair, my makeup, that fleeting happiness never came. It's a sensation of numbness, of loneliness, of hindering fatigue.

It isn't until you've felt a succession of apathetic days that you realize what a blessing it is to feel anything at all.

Apathy comes with a bigger price tag than just indifference. Doing much of anything has been draining. Even doing what I love - drawing, writing, ect. - has become monotonous.
It's easy to see, then, why I haven't updated in so long.

My therapist tells me that feelings of apathy that last for days on end are a symptom of an advanced stage of depression. She's referring me to a child psychiatrist to get an exam to test whether I need antidepressants or not.

I can't tell you when I'll be out of my funk, but for all y'all out there who cared enough to read all of that, I promise you I won't stop drawing, ever. One day I'll get back into drawing regularly and I'll start updating more often. With any luck, the first to come'll be trade halves that are by now woefully overdue.

Thank you all for being so patient with me. I hope it isn't too much to ask for just a little longer to climb over this hurdle, antidepressants or no, so I can get back into the swing of things.


I wanted to thank all of my wonderful friends, including TinFoilHatPengy, TheGreatWall, Salferna and diligo for helping me through my fluctuating emotions. I love you all to pieces.

FIRST THINGS FIRST

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The Big List of Gifts
My New Sketch Blog

WHAT'S NEW?

That's right, y'all, I'm still alive.

I wanted to apologize to everyone, especially folks like LadySerpent and Lunadea who I owe trades to, for not updating in a really long time. Apart from a low initiative to get anything done, I've been hinderingly sick since the weekend with raucous coughing and onslaughts of bad headaches, making it considerably hard to focus on drawing. I'm not sure when I'll get anything done (timetables only give me unnecessary stress) so let's just keep our fingers crossed it'll be sometime soon.

Hope y'all's weeks have been moving along better than mine has!

FIRST THINGS FIRST

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• The Big List of Gifts/To-do's

WHAT'S NEW?

cowbunny91sketches.blogspot.co…

Got a new sketch blog! Last one didn't work out so well, so let's keep our fingers crossed Not a lot up there at the moment, but I expect it to update a lot more often than my main gallery since I set this one apart for all my finished stuff.

See y'all there!

FIRST THINGS FIRST

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• The Big List of Gifts/To-do's

WHAT'S NEW?

Y'all, I'm getting a bit tired of everyone bitching over the new DA policy that "allows other people to steal your work".

The fact of the matter? DeviantArt put forth that rule to save themselves, not to let anyone get free reign to steal your work. As badly as everyone wants to believe it, DeviantArt is not out to stab you in the back.

Think about it. If you were running a company that catered to artists and assured everyone posting a picture, from the inane to the masterpieces, that their work was not only officially copyrighted but that there would be a definite backlash to anyone who tries to steal it, and you had as many members as DeviantArt has ... jee-zus, you'd be flooded!
Users could sue you over the promise and you could lose a lot of money unecessarily. You'd be overwhelmed with court cases, lawyer's fees, unecessary tears and bloodshed ... is that something you, or anyone else, would want to have to go through all over a promise?

Moreover, the new rule recognizes legal copyrights. Minor copyrights you can get for free; for stronger copyrights, the most you need to do is pay a registration fee (or so I've heard) and you can get a copyright for any of your characters and your art you want and DA will back it up. If you're too lazy to protect your characters, your art, your writing, your photography yourself, then that's your problem, not DeviantArt's for trying to keep itself from a world of red tape to clear.

Furthermore, it doesn't matter where you post your art, be it DeviantArt or anywhere else. The truth of it is whether you have a copyright or not and you put your work up online, anyone is capable of stealing it without you ever finding it out. That is the reality of the situation you need to grasp whenever you upload a picture anywhere. Official characters and art are stolen constantly or used without written permission; most freelance fanfictions, even, are technically copyright infringement. Even so ... if you upload something anywhere on the Internet, prepare to have it stolen or don't post it at all.

So, in short ... deal with the reality that anything you ever post on the Internet is capable of being stolen scotch-free, or get off the internet. If you still want to show more people your art, get a copyright. It's not difficult nor is it time consuming.

But whatever you do, stop complaining and get over yourself.

- CB